Visitors

Thank God for visitors. If it weren't for friends and family I think I would go nuts with all of this bedrest. My friend Maria came over today with her twins. They were born at 31wks and are doing so well. I will be 32 wks tomorrow, so it is nice to see that even if the baby came over he would do well like Maria's two babies. I have been seeing the doctor and being monitored for ctx just about every other day which at least is a change of pace. Only a few more weeks....

More bedrest!!!

Well it has been a few days since I have written. Last week on tuesday (the day I hit 29wks) I was at work holding someone's leg while she was pushing. I am not quite sure how it happened but I was kicking in the stomach, and needless to say went into labor. I guess I was kind of in denial as I kept working for the rest of the night and thought I was just sore. I told my boss in the morning and she told me to go down to the ER. The ER then sent me back up to OB and they put me on a monitor and found that I was contracting every two to three minutes. Well after constant monitoring and meds I am home and on strict bedrest. I had another ultrasound to make sure the placenta was still okay and it is. So the next few weeks are not looking too promising, but whatever it takes to make this little guy okay is worht it

Ron and Denise Reception

Yesterday we had a reception in order to honor their wedding as well as the birth of their beautiful daughter Dasanee Shari. Dennis is home, which is such a wonderful blessing. It is so nice to have our whole family together. It was bittersweet as he left yesterday afternoon and now who knows when we will see him again. We are hoping to see him before he goes back to Iraq in the fall.

Dinner with Weber's

Today we had Mother's Day dinner with Matt's mom. It was good. We took pictures of my pregnant belly, which we haven't good about this far. Cindy said she wished that she had more, so I will learn from her experience. I feel good and have no bleeding today.

First Mother's Day

Today is Mother's Day. I can't believe that someday soon I will have the wonderful priviledge of being a mom. I can't wait to hear this little boy's voice calling me momma. WE spent the day with my mom at her favorite restaurant. The food was delicious. I can't wait for next mother's day, when I will have this little guy. I wonder if he will be calling me momma by then?

Name game

Matt and I cannot figure out a name for this baby. I like Joshua, Alexander, and Christian. Matt likes Ian, Simon, and Samuel. We think we will use the name Lee as his middle name as it will be after his great grandfather.
I am now 26 weeks and 4 days. I can't believe it. At the ultrasound today the baby weighed 1lb 15oz. I am so excited, this is the first time that he isn't measuring smaller than he should be. I continue to measure small which makes the Dr nervous but at least he is growing.

Wiggle worm

This boy sure is active. Today at my Dr's appt he was so busy in there thatwe couldn't keep his heartbeat long enough to have an actual count. I finally starting to feel better. I am measuring small and not gaining weight but I am starting to feel like a human being again.
AT work the other day I took care of someone with the same due date as me in with pre-term labor. How scary that would be. I hope I never have any issues with preterm labor, and if I do I pray that they can stop my labor until the baby is big and strong.

Miracle baby survives surgery

I feel like I am failing this baby already. After being admitted, the Dr did an ultrasound of my liver and gallbladder, and has now decided that that is why I am so sick. The surgeon has said that the baby is malnourished and starving as I am so malnourished from all the vomiting. I didn't know, I thought that this was all morning sickness. They said that I need to have my gallbladder out, so at 17weeks and 3 days that is what I did.
And of course our little miracle baby survived, although we were warned that there was a real possibility that I would go into labor with the anesthesia meds, but thankfully I didn't. This poor baby has been through so much already.
I actually know that I felt the baby move after the surgery, it was like it was telling me "yeah mom I am here and I am still okay." With all of the surgery and stuff I have now found out that we are expecting a BOY!!! WE are so thrilled, we would have been just as thrilled with a girl as well.

Surgery while pregnant

So I went to the doctor the other day, and when I was leaving just passed out in her office. They rushed me in to their priority room, and after 3 nurses attempted to get an IV the doctor was able to get it in. They gave me some fluids and then I was allowed to come home, with the instructions to go back if something else happened. So of course I went home and passed out again. I was admitted to a cardiac floor, as they are questioning something is wrong with my heart.
I was admitted to the hospital and they determined that my gallbladder needed to come out.

Dehydration and admission

What a wonderful Valentine's Day!! I think I felt this little miracle move inside of me for the first time. I know it is early but I think I did. It is now march and I have been admitted to the hospital intermittently for dehydration. It is so frustrating to have all of these problems and be trying so hard to make this baby healthy. I just can't stop vomiting.

1 trimester down 2 to go

We are telling more and more people about this incredible miracle baby we are carrying. We have now told my cousin Kerry, who is shocked that I was able to keep a secret for so long. And we told my grandmother who is absolutely thrilled. We have asked her to be in the delivery room as she was a labor and delivery nurse as well. And the cool thing is she was in the room when I was born too.

More bleeding!!!

I had gone back to work and was actually out in labor and delivery when I felt a gush, it was such a horrifying feeling to see how much blood was coming out. The OB that was on said that he isn't overly concerned as I just had an ultrasound two days ago and everything was fine. But he wants another ultrasound on monday. I also used the doppler at work and it is the most beautiful thing in the world to hear this little heart beating so strong.

Trust Me

Today at church my wonderful sister-in-law Tracy sang a song called "Trust Me" by Crystal Lewis, and I really felt like God was speaking directly to me, telling/reminding me that He is in control and I just have to trust Him. I continue to bleed, and the OB doctor said that there is no hope and that I should just give up on this baby, but my family practice doctor is still supportive and God is the ultimate decider of what will happen. I keep listening to that song, a specific line says"trust me, trust me, though you can't see." So I have told God that I am trusting Him to have my hormone levels to go into the 90,000 range, and guess what they went up to 97,000!!!

Bedrest is awful

I am so bored! I have been working on a quilt for the baby, and reading many books that people have brought over. I am continuing to bleed although no one can figure out why. And now my HCG levels aren't high enough to sustain a pregnancy. They aren't increasing as they should. So many are praying for this baby. A positive thing is that because of the problems we get to have multiple ultrasounds, weekly for now. We can now see arms and legs and everything. Bedrest hasn't caused the bleeding to slow down at all. But I know that God is protecting this little miracle.

Oh no! I started bleeding yesterday!! I am so scared that I will lose this baby. I keep telling God that I just can't lose another baby. We had an ultrasound and some blood work drawn. I was in a complete panic as we went to the ultrasound as that is when we first found out that our first baby was not okay. Well this little miracle is okay, Baby Love (nickname for now) heart is beating 162 beats a minute. It is so amazing, it just looks like a little peanut with a little flicker of light when the heart is beating. We are now on bedrest through the weekend to see if the bleeding will stop.